I'm living in a HATE world.

How do I begin to hate you?
And how do I begin to erase you from my memory?

I'm being haunted.
Even if I try, there's just no way to escape.
I still have troubles in sleeping.
Frequently, I dream of you. And frequently, I wake up in the same realization that you're gone.

Maybe because it is just now that things have started to sink in.
You're loving another.
You loved another before you left.

How can I mend the heart that was never honestly loved?
How can I mend the soul that wasn't given closure?
How can I mend the self that was never given the opportunity to condemn you?

I wanna shout at you.
I wanna slap you.
I wanna say you're a liar, a bitch.

But, before giving me the chance to do so, before giving me the chance to seek justice/closure from you,
you killed me by a sure death...
and my soul is left in this world,
wandering from place to place
seeking for a love that was never lost because it was never found.

When will I find my silence?
Give me justice. Do me justice.

I loved you more than anyone in the world, and it was never just to say you did when you never really did.
And why can't you explain the reason why you left? Do you think I was foolish enough not to know? And when will you grow up to a man who could admit the reason? It should have been easy for me if you weren't so selfish to admit. I'm just waiting for your closure.


I hate liars. I hate promises broken. I hate you.
And I hate loving you.

But more so, I hate myself for still doing the thing I hate:
I still love you.